03072019

Didn’t get much done in way of in-engine stuff but I got a respectable amount of progress done on writing and outlining so I feel satisfied with my work today. I noticed today just how out of my element I’ve been feeling lately for some reason. Maybe it’s a direct consequence of the heat or something, but I’ve been in what I can only really describe as a palpable state of simultaneous disorientation and restlessness this past week (maybe a little bit longer, time passes too quickly and insubstantially for me to notice these days). I find it difficult to fall asleep and I find it even more difficult to get up. I don’t think I’m depressed but I’m not so sure anymore. I’ve been living alone, I’ve been far too removed for far too long from the broader state of normal society that I’m no longer really sure if I can see myself clearly.