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Working on rewriting the save/load system. Migrating from using a whole bunch of manual ds_map read/writes to a (hopefully) more succinct system based around reading structs from a buffer. Converted story variables and config so far. The most difficult challenge has been locating everything and remembering what controls what. I need to develop a more effective system for managing this type of shit in the future.

The sadness has gotten worse. I feel terribly empty and alone, and I’ve started thinking regularly about killing myself after the game is finished again. The worst part is that I truly have no excuse here. I’m eating a lot better, going out more often, in the company of my friends. And yet it still not only persists, but has gotten in some ways palpably worse.