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I’ve been feeling a terrible emptiness. Aggravated all throughout the day, angry. Dwelling on dark thoughts. I couldn’t sleep at all last night so I stayed up and forced myself to attend the 8am service. I was the only one in the pews. I don’t know what’s gotten into me. I was feeling pretty good the past few days. I don’t know what’s changed. Lost focus, is what it is. Life is good for me when it is small, contained. I lost sight of the immediate comforts and pleasures, started looking outwards again. Inadequate. Can’t do anything right.