18082020

I can’t really remember what I did today to be honest, which I guess means I didn’t really do anything of worth. The GMS2.3 update went live in stable release today and for four hours this morning after waking I struggled to update the project to it, ultimately to no avail. I think after that I must have just been so frustrated that I wasted away the rest of the day out of spite. I’ve been feeling a whole lot of that these days. It comes and goes in waves. Surges of hatred. I wish I wasn’t this way, you know. But for as long as I can remember… Maybe I should look into counselling again. Just the thought of dealing with all the paperwork though makes it basically unfeasible in practice. I suppose you already know all this though.