Month: April 2025

Haven’t gone to service in over two months. I get the sense that I’m devolving somehow.

It was warm and humid and grey, and the bare branches swirled outside my window with the nascence of a summer breeze. I feel like I’m becoming sick with sadness. It poisons my thoughts with clouds of resentment and doubt and deadens my limbs with dreadful torpor. I need to get something done by the end of this weekend, or I fear there may be terrible repercussions upon my wellbeing.

Another week has passed with little to show for any of it. I’m barely cognisant most days. The burst of energy and motivation I had the other week feels completely alien now. I can barely remember what it felt like or what inspired it. I’m beginning to consider the possibility that I will never really return to a place where I can make games in an inspired or meaningful way.