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Last night out here. I wasn’t feeling much before but now, as I sit here thinking about home, I’m a bit scared to go back. To be alone with all of it. It feels like it’s been too long, yet it’s barely been two weeks. I can already feel the sadness starting to return…

I’ve had a very pleasant time here. The odd thing is, the more we drove around, the more I began to miss the city in a strange way. I’ve been feeling really small in the world lately, and I’ve been having a very hard time maintaining focus and motivation of any kind. I’d been feeling this way for a long time now, but it’s gotten unmanageable as of late… I don’t feel settled in my life anymore. I feel really restless and trapped within myself. I spent all day trying to learn stuff in Unity but just came away physically exhausted with nothing to show of it at the end of the day.