spncryn/log

04062025

We’ve now reached the point of the year where it’s quite suddenly become very hot and rather humid. I’ve been trying to force myself to work on my portfolio these past few days. Today was not so good: I ended up falling into a spiral of despair after becoming fixated on the possibility that I had no chance. I was able to shake myself out of it eventually, which I think is good progress in the larger scheme, as usually I just fall into states of irresolute anger which persist for several days afterwards, and end up tanking my motivation completely. That I was able to recognise for myself that I had begun slipping and not only terminate that thought before it seized me completely, but reverse it, I feel, is a significant improvement from before.